More than a bit of love

Something today has been quite unusual!!!!!!

I have been thinking about something.I thought i would want to share it here.

For me, this is blogging at it's best. Being able to create a community of individuals that share information and ideas that can make the community as a whole a better place. Thank you.

One of the things I have been thinking about is the "manner" of a person. "Manner" or "grace" is not something that you can learn from a book. Unfortunately, it is something you just have to be or to develop.

A great scene of modern grace on '30 Rock' the other day:

Liz and Jack went out to dinner at a very chic restaurant. As they sat down at the table, Jack immediately moved the candle from the center of the setting to the side of the table. Liz looked at him kinda funny, not understanding why he did that but, not really caring either. Later, however, when Liz reached across the table to steal some of Jack's food (as she always does), she realized he moved the candle so her sleeve wouldn't catch fire when she reached across the table. Jack's manner and grace were so attuned to her as a friend, that he knew her moves before she did. That tiny gesture ended up becoming the pivotal moment of the episode and changed the course of their business relationship. I'm telling you guys again, women notice the small stuff. They notice the gentleness/gentlemenliness more than if you use the right fork at dinner.

I'll be honest, my biggest obsession in life right now is not better shoes, more dresses or a bigger career but, to simply be a more graceful woman for my graceful man. So people, in the spirit of grace, manner and Valentine's Day, take a moment and share with me some of the little kindnesses that your man has done for you that made your heart flutter. Men might learn something and you might gain an even more graceful man, a gentleman.

Editor's Note: For my gay readers, I can only write this as I know it, a man loving a woman. Don't let this keep you from joining the conversation. If you have tiny acts of kindness from a boyfriend to a boyfriend, or girlfriend to a girlfriend, please share with us!Grace is Grace. It doesn't matter who you're lovin', it's how you're lovin'!

Random Musings

Sometime back i came across a fellow blogger..I am not aware who she is..I am not even aware where she lives, how she looks..But still i was able to relate so much to her blog..I was able to relate to all her emotions..

Today again seated on my couch,watching the IDIOT BOX,my mind is boggling over her blog and how though being strangers i was so much able to relate to her..May be every existing being has nearly the same kind of incidents to face and similar emotions in reply..I know i am talking junk but i remembered her Blog and the way i was touched..

I wish life bestow her with all happiness and strength..And from personal experience someone who has seem pain in a young age, has more courage and strength than any person could ever think :)

Maybe . . . there are moments in lifewhen you miss someone -- a parent, aspouse, a friend, a child -- so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real, so that once they are around you appreciate them more.

It was too real for me and i couldnt resist sharing..What do u guys think???

Random Musings

Sorry folks,i have been away for really long now :(..Dint find to time to catch up with others blog..So obviously din find time to update mine ;)..

Anyway life has come back to normal and i m doing good in all fronts..Some setbacks,but thats just walk of life..We cant crib abt it..To be frank there is loads to talk but even before i started i am in short of words..Will sit in peace another time and may be do blog writing..

As of this post,it is to tell that i am alive and kicking..Hope u guys are rocking too..C ya around

Its been a long time i thought of writing a blog.Today despite the fact that its very difficult for me to do so,i still have sat down to try it,to kill time.

I had a really good time all these months that i was away..But as of now i have lost my eyes and still attempting to write a blog..Truly necessity is the mother of invention..I remember typing without looking before with eyes,but that was a really different scenario as compared to now..But still i want to be able to start living independently and be able to do things that keep me busy..

Trust me a person who has worked since the age of 7 and now at 24 is made to sit down without just anything to do the whole day is a toil on its own..Loosing of eye is just one side of the coin..But sitting home and not being able to watch movies or read novels or play games or even go for a walk is just difficult..But the worst is not being able to eat your own food when it comes to Roti-curry..I prefer rice items these days ,as its a pain to dip roti in curry every time on a guess and eat :(..Regardless to say my family and friends have been good support :)..

Feel like if someone would be next to me and keep me occupied with gossips or just anything would be a Blessing in disguise..But i do realise its too much for the asking..As everyone has there own work to do :(..Hoping i start to learn to live with it..

But dono when i will start living with this...God Help Me!!!!

PS.Dont be surprised that there are no mistakes in my blog entry..As a dear friend has helped in editing all mistakes(about 53) and posting it successfully up here..To cheer up everyones mood after this sad blog:without doubts u would see more of my blogs now as i am completely jobless :)..Please guys dont expect editing always ;)

New Year,New Me

First of all a Happy New Year to All..It has been a eventful 2009,with family for me....I have had some fun filled days with cousins..And now i am officially back to work..I am quite happy with work too and am very happy that its the perfect job for me..I am totally satisfied and completely passionate abt the job i do...I believe that job satisfaction is the next big thing for a healthy life :)..

Apart from this i m moving to US in less than 2 days to deliver a lecture in Stanford..I am glad i have been given this priviledge and take this oppurtunity to thank my loved friend who has been a great source of inspiration and support in every step of my life and not to forget that he/she has been there between me and troubles encountering my life ...Thanks again :)..

Also i kindaa feel i have grown up so much more just at the start of this year..I have started to deal people and things in a matured way..Is it a new Meeeeeeeeeeee??Only time will tell..sigh*

Update Time :)

Its been quite an eventful month.Dono why i din blog..

My Trip to the US and India have been eventful..I directly migrated from freezing temp in US to just above boiling point temperature here..But both are good in its own way :)..

Its been a tough and hectic month for me..Both in office and home :)..I am glad that i have managed it both quite well :)..But there is undoubtedly no life without the ups and down..but i m sure i have managed the down side too very well for a change..I m gng back again..As many know i have mixed emotions..But i m not whining..As a concious choice should be respected and should be strived to tackle..Than rather whining :)..

For reasons immaterial,i will miss home :)..I will miss all my friends i have grown up with..I will miss love from the parental unit,not to forget my Dadu too :)..But i know i m gng back for a better future and of course to resurrect Prachi..But there are certain things i am confused..As all my friends are slowly getting hitched and i still live in darkness :)..As for some relationship which are falling apart,only time will say if they are lasting or just another passing cloud..But i have grown above all to accept life as it comes without complaining..As life is a huge bunch of surprises :),not as pleasant as a bunch of Red Roses for sure..But still they are good old white orchids ;)

Shameful ACT

Shameless attacks and Shame on My own Mother India..Are we safe in the hands of our own Mother,Is a ?? we all need to ask ourselves..

I am in total disgrace..I am glued to TV from the last 15 hours or so..Yes i am selfish..I have my loved one out there and i m in a position not even able to make it closer to them..Its a total disgrace..Lets not blame the terrorist..Its the citizens of India who get sold for a few pennies,that they know wont even come with them at the end when they die and bcome the reason for so many innocent lives.I ask will they live happily by making money this way..Its a shameful act..Its a shame on the entire Indian Security..Its a shame for all my fellow people who cant even protect there own people..So what if we are born from another mother..So what..Are we not sharing the same Mother Land..lets all stand and feel ashamed at doing such acts...Evevyone from Traffic policeman to a hotel waitor are bloody corrupted..corruption at lower levels has paved way for corruption at this extent,leading to innocent Lives..Have we not learnt anything from the movie Wednesday..

Lets not play a game of Politics..Atleast now,atleast now lets wake UP...Its we and only we responsible..Lets not just blame anyone...Lets stand up together..Not like Advani who has started Politics in the ground of so many people killed..lets not fall off more

More than just another CITY

I am lazing at home today..

I just cant concentrate anywhere..There was a time i felt i should move outta this place and reside elswhere,i would be happy..Today when life is offering me a chance,my heart is sinking like a wretched boat..I can feel the importance of this place and totally feel myself loosing something that too in my complete conciousness..It has been the place where i lived my childhood,made my career,got my first job,smiled and cried with all relationships life offered me with..My roots lie here..I am leaving this place now..its a bad feeling and i am outta words at the moment..

Hope life and god would give me another chance and i would do just what makes me happy :)

Thanks All For being there

Technically i m back..More strong and quite better off in the health front..My chicken Pox has not vanished totally,but atleast there are less signs of it..

My friends say its truly a disease which has held me back hahahahaahahha :) from freaking out..Anyway this is the positive touch to my life at the moment..And thanks to all my friends who mailed me,called me or messaged me for my speedy recovery..Thanks for all you guys prayers..May be thats the emotional touch which has made me come this far..

I truely "MISS" my normal fun-filled life....Someone please throw a party,may be a Halloween's party this weekend for my speedy recovery..Thanks in advance for the one who takes the initiative :D...sigh*

Bad Days are just endless

Yday i had a rough day..Apart from my Chicken Pox,thats spreading like a super fast train,all over my body..I had a very rough time..

My Dadu had a massive heart-attack,and unfortunately i couldnt make it there..More than anything the fact that i am never been there next to my loved one during there Death-bed is killing me the most..I have not attended any funerals of my loved ones..Fall apart the fact that,God and my dear friends know wat this blow would mean to me...

This is by far the most dreadful time i have seen,apart from the many others i thought were bad..But nothing by far has been this bad..Hope God and my friends really help me sail this time..i just really want to sail this time!!!

Is Beauty the ultimate Mantra

I am usually not a controversial person..I don usually make a active role in conversations that demand 2 different groups..Its never that i don have my view,but i prefer to make peace and stay outta controversy..

But today unlike my usual self i want to just know wat the others think..Think abt what??A conversation with a very close acquaintance today forced me to think,if beauty was everything..FOr ex..My acquaintance that i am referring to him/her was filled with life and jazz when he/she was cing a particular person..But after the brutal break up,i see that things have changed..yes i agree its very difficult and blah blah blah..But the million dollar point is Life moves ON and so do we..So him/her had another affair and bcos of some tragic setbacks of the past affair, him/her is not what him/her used to be..Claims to have been rendered feeling less and lifeless..Is it right for him/her to have another affair in such a situation and in case him/her is changing,isn't it required for him/her to bring the awareness in the other person that him/her is changing..And also the fact lies is that the second affair girl/boy is not so good looking as compared to the first,so does this mean that him/her will not keep up those looks and fall down below his/her standard..Doesn't his/her have responsibilities for the new person in his/her life..Isn't it his/her's responsibility to show that faith ,that the new person is very important and him/her do everything to keep him/her happy.

Is this all the worth for the second person to accept a broken heart??I care to let this conversation go OFF my mind, thats why have expressed this here..Need to know wat do u guys think??Comments and views are most welcome!!!!!!!!!

I Feel Different

Its been a year..Hurray its indeed been a year..I feel different..I am grown up now..I have gotten to be a little more mature..I am different..



The whole year seemed like i was loosing something..Something all the time..But now that i look back and look beside,i understand why i lost all that..Like Newton's Theory for gravity,i do believe that there is theory based for LIFE too which invariably if the almighty exists made it,els LIFE made it ,which goes on to say,"If u ever seek a penny in LIFE,u need to have the heart to fore go a rupee".It might at the first sight look,that He/She who has gained the penny has lost,as rupee is more valuable than penny..But if we get into the minutest details,you will understand that the rupee was never worth the penny :)...



Thats what i to believe..Thats what my heart says..I might have lost so many loved Ones,but this phase of my life has shown me the person who truely has become my BEST BUDDY..May what come i will stand next to my friend and my heart is rest assured that he/she will..And if this is what this year could give me,then it was worth every bit :)..Say Cheese and 3 Cheers for LONG LIVE MY FRIENDSHIP....

Totally Missed

It marks ONE YEAR DEATH ANNIVERSARY of my soulmate Shreya today.I am sure everyone must have lost their loved ones at one or the other stage.I am sure everyone would know that Life and Death are 2 sides of the same coin and both have to be accepted...

But i fail to differ...As there is still a part of me which cries and is emotionally bonded with that soul which has left me a year back...I feel her very next to me and wonder how it would have been if she would have been a part of all decisions of my life, like she did when she was around...I MISS her totally...I will always Love her like i did...She will always remain my BESTEST FRIEND..And she surely is not a passing cloud of my life..U will always remain in my life like u have...Just that there is always your presence that is missed :(...

However hoping that you are happy where ever u r and to make it easier, this world is not that good enough for u to have lived..So Shreya u havent lost anything, but i surely have..Hope u have made loads of friends there and also partying hard and finally hope u r still the same Shreya everyone loved to be aroundd.....


Miss U Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Mixed Feelings

Ok i know,i always misss out for few days and come right back in like a popcorn and then appologise.So following the usual trend i appologise to all my readers who have missed me(assumed that u guys have missed me ;))

Today i am back with a series of mixed emotions.I am happy and sad both at the same time..I have a very dear friend moving abroad for just a little while.But my heart seems to sink down :( for no obvious reasons.At the other far end i feel so good,that he is going to achieve something great in his career.This indeed is gonna be a great move for him.

Apart from this i also have another good news to share and that is my close, female friend of course is tying the knot in the coming weeks and you guessed right i am busy shopping.Doing all the babes work unlike me though.I got 4 pretty sarees and also a pretty salwar.I am going to totally rock in her wedding.I basically like all the wedding jazz.the people,noise,fun,food(which is not my territory though),just everything.All in all its going to be a fun-filled week and lot of missing for sure :(..But whatever happens,happens for good :)..Cos when he will be back,he is gonna get me loads of chocolates and gifts ;)..heheheh..Els he is not supervised to land in India..Hahahaha...

And guess what ppl i enrolled for this supercool Dance classes near my PG and will have some fat burning sessions to loose weight and at the same time have fun..This is turning out to me like a great Summer..though on the health fromt i always remain low :(..No matter what season and time it is..May be i have started to live with it :),which is super cool..Okay folks i decide to be back soon this time..hope for the best..Bcos Prach's only tries makes no concrete promises until she is very sure..So have a good coming weekend

Inevitably life has been on para-sail off late that no time for friends,family or for that matter my existense ;).Now guess wheres the time for blogging.I have this blog dedicated to one idiot out here who has claimed that he reads my blogs regularly and so i need to blog as he is getting bored.

I dont know what to discuss or tell.As there hasnt been much interesting stuff that has happened with me to update either.But yes wait a minute all i can think of is i am excited about my next trip to you know where my lovely school.I am too excited just at the thought of going back to school.i know i cant go back and take classes ;) though,which i hated during those days.But yes now i miss them a lot.Especially Kamal mam's accent filled supercool English class,to Keshav Sir's the "Chombu" filled Maths classes.All my lovely classmates,hope all are in there seats and not down like we used to be, laughing in his classes.How can we forget Bawani mam,no matter what, she was a good human-being and i pray that her soul rest in peace where ever she is.Coming back i still dont forget those singing classes of Singaramma and god knows the name of the teacher who replaced her.The worst classes of my life for the reason that i dont even qualify to be a bathroom singer ;)hehehe.Of course my passion was debate,pick nd speak,story telling blah blah blah blah qualifying me to be a great speaker of course(Am i not a legend in that!!!!!).I also to an extent liked the Prabhavathi class even though i dont feel like adding mam next to her name :(.She really made me feel like a Gay at times.I was indeed tired of her partiality towards me,which was benificial but not a great feeling grrrrrrrr.

Now i cant even remember the number of subjects i had.How sick of me.Maths,English,Science and Sanskrit,Social,Hindi(with help from my friend sitted next to me :)).Sanskrit was way too tough subject for me.Even though i dint hate it,i never seemed to like it.I have indeed struggled to clear the papers ,end of the day managing a good score,with too much sweat wasted.Social was borrrrrrrrrring too.I hated Saraswani mam's boring classes.I dono how many will agree,but i felt she dint know the way to teach and if i would be her,i will be able to do a good job :).Anyways my classmates where not so lucky.Cant remember Hindi folks.

All in all those where fun filled days.I always looked forward for school to start and when it did,looked forward for it to close :).Cant forget Sushma's obssesed affection,nor Meke's dialogue to substantiate that singing is the best hobby "If you would ever be in jail,to paint you need paper and pen,to dance tape-recorder to play music,but to sing you need nothing", which always made me think will she or me ever be in jail ;).Cant forget the Tomboyish Shree.Cant forget the arrogant and fighter-cocks Abhi and Gowri.Cant forget Shreg in a Gay dance(Hahahahahahahahahahaha).Cant forget the long walk to eat that bogus Chat which we all claimed as treat then.Cant forget the competetion between us and section 'C'.Cant forget our school trips(All of them were fun).Cant forget Srividya's sun tan episode.Cant forget the Kho-Kho game that i was good at.Actually i was good at sports,wasnt i.Cant forget our first reaction at the sight of Garima.Cant forget the Nagaland dance which i did, and we won the first place everywhere we danced.Cant forget a lot of things.I fairly can remember when i forgot something about school

Think About This

I am here after a reaaaaaaaal long time.My 2 jobs have kindaa screwed up my schedule that my own blogspace keeps craving for me to visit it ;). So to make me and my blog space happy i am back

I came in here this morning for timepass.but seems like i am in a mood of serious debate. Debate as to what life was or what life is or what life can be.Sometimes i wonder we all claim to be leading a life. "Life" O man do anyone of us really know what it means. I guess it has a million definitions. Definitions that vary from end to end, continent to continent, class to class and finally person to person.

On a broader perspective writing this blog is also a part of my Life ;). Now thats crazy. Life for me is an oppurtunity given by the almighty to share different types of feelings , to meet different type of people, to see different shades of nature. All in all a platform to see and make a DIFFERENCE. Man wasnt that cool (Muaah to me :) ). Hope atleast half the souls who will read my blog will understand what i mean by life.

And as per some of my mates they claim life as just and just individual oriented mechanism, just leading a Bindaas life and then just washing it away like a stream of sand in a strom. But i wonder is this all life is or life can offer.

Its true that everyone comes with the destiny to leave. But some make a mark and some dont. I believe that even if we cant live a princelike life, but there is something every damn individual irrespective of circumstances does have and just a truthful concious of his/her can brighten up maybe not many, but alteast onces life. So people please belive that everyone of you reading this blog have something and may be just a extra effort can make all the DIFFERENCE.

PS: Dont brood about what you have or what you have lost in the past, cos anything that you have might be something the other doesnt and what you have lost might be something that was not meant for you. So gone should be the days when you make yourself feel that i have nothing, for the very reason that there is someone somewhere who doesnt even have what you have :).Cheers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mind Boggling Moments

Something new, something good, something bad, something insignificant, something significant happens everyday. Every day is new. Everyday is special in its own way. Every damn passing day adds so many memories. Some to be cherished and some to be feared of to even be remembered.

I want to reeeeeeeel back those good old moments of my life today.Those moments which have been so memorable to fade off from my memory for a real good time(maybe for a lifetime).To start off my journey-

• My first ever friend Abhi , still my friend and is still to stay.Someone who held the hands of a small little sweet innocent(guess too less adjectives naa to describe me ;)) girl when she really needed a friend.
• My neighbour,my soulmate,my twin sister(can say) Shreya who made life so entertaining with her cheap low class talks and her passion for speed raved me off.Someone with a cool happy go attitude.Someone who lived and let lived.Cheers mate!!!Hope you entertaining everyone out there in paradise heaven.
• My first so called Brother Gaurav,who has seen me growing nd who was there when no one was.Someone with a cool but very aggrassive nature.Someone who is the most caring soul i ever found in years.Guess still havent found anyone as caring as him :).
• My first success as a student,winning the Story telling competition.Never felt much happier than that day and may be never can any success be as relishing as that.My first ever national success for my own story named "Nothing is impossible,Cos Impossible itself means 'I m possible'" :)
• My trip to NASA ,indeed was a dream come true.Gosh Technology thrives there and what is called atmosphere is something i learned there.
• My first date( ;) blushing blushing), was not anywhere close to my dream date, but yet was my first date with the first guy i ever had a crush on.Sorry guys i faintly remember his face now :).
• My thesis work at Missionaries of Charity is a memory worth lifetime.What misery can be,is what i learnt from there.After staying there for a months time i have realised the worth of what i have and stopped cribbing about what i dont have.
• My first ever performance(Arangatrum) as a professional dancer
• My job in a Cafe.Man swear i liked that job to the core.Its twenty times more pleasure than sipping a cup of coffee at a cafe.
• My trip, actually our trip to US (Las Vegas):This trip was the most awesome trip of ma life.It was worth the pain we took to reach there with so much financial crunches and cant forget the "Bhook Hadthal" we did to make Shreya's parents agree for this trip.
• My life as a journalist:little different,liitle spicy,little hectic,little cool.In simple words,a job that payed to enjoy :)
• My first home.I have stayed in so many different houses all my life.But the pleasure of staying in a house thats bought soully by u is a pleasure.

Now life is rolling like a spinner ball and i m rolling with all the pleasure.Hoping things would remain the same and hoping things would change.Diplomatic huh.Leaving u guys at this thought...

My Truthful Confessions

I am in total jazzy confession mood today.Confessions for the sins that i have done and confessions for the sins that i havent.

So here i start: I appologise To

1) My birth ;) : If i was never born , then mistakes wouldnt have happened

2) My parents : If i wasnt so unlucky, may be things would have been different

3) My carelessness : If i wasnt careless, i mite have been something els and not an engineer for sure

4) My temper : If i had a control over it, maybe i would have never hurt so many innocent hearts

5) My friends( all of them ppl) : If i was just a little less caring, may be we would have all been together for ever.

6) My job : If i was just a little healthy, then could have spared and dedicated better time for it

7) Lastly to me : For never been able to dedicate any time for me. For have not taken any heed to my personal liking. Just accepted all that comes , totally unbothered and uninterested.

Finally all appologies have made me realise one ground reality:

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

A sweet tear trickles down my cheeks while i finish this blog, for the reason, unlike many today i have got an opportunity to appologise to all people associated to me in a direct or indirect way, whom i mite have unknowingly ever hurt.

People you all rock!!!As my very own existence is due to you all...Love you all..

Cheers!!!!!

Love Vs Arranged

From my thoughts i have seen all parents irrespective of cast and creed have the same thoughts on the most debated issue "Love marriage vs Arranged marriage"

Most of them who know me will be amused how am i debating on this topic.Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Prachi debating on this topic.Oh my god.But guyzzz i am here cos of my stupid cousin Pramod, who has been the motivating factor for me to write this blog.

Love marraige(from now on referred as A) mmmmmmmmmmmmm.Arranged marriage (from now on referred as B)mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.Gosh marriage(from now on referred as M) is another mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.Ooph its a draining topic guyzzz...As both for me have there own disadvantages and advantages.

Starting with A ,it is claimed as the most gifted and beautiful thing that can happen.You get an chance to understand your life partner much much before,you start shring life.Get to understand the compatibility that you share.Get to understand the common interest,likes and dislikes.Finally a chance to decide whether he/she is the special one.Is he/she the one with whom i can spend the rest of my life under a single roof.

But guyzzzz isnt this a little boring.There is no adventure ,no chance to explore the person.All is a open book.This can get to boredom.What really looked like a dream before marriage,can become a pain post marriage.Please guyzz don take any offense against me.This is all what i have heard.Nothing is "Aap Bithi". I am still a spinster you c :).

Now on B,it is claimed as the most traditional sought out marriage,where the girl and the guy see each other for the first time only when they are found with each other sharing the same room and ofcourse the same bed.As per some of my resources this is a disadvantage cos a lot of time is wasted in adjustment and compatibility before love making really happens ;).May be they have a point, maybe not.Who can ever decide on anyones body needs.So finally They start exploring each other like reading a suspense filled thriller novel.B for me used to be the most sought out option,but with the growing intellectual brains of our teens A has become the interest than an option ;).

People as for me ,for A to happen have started making love happen,whereas love is claimed to be fallen into from ancient times.Its all with the heart and the individual,why am i debating ;).

For me M itself is the biggest commited suicide in complete senses :0).Still people manage to defend by saying

"Shaadi Ek Aissa Ladoo Hai Jho Khata Hai Woh Bi Pachtata Hai,Aur Jo Na Kaye Woh Bi Pachtata Hai", So kakhe pachtaoooooooooooooooooo.