Inevitably life has been on para-sail off late that no time for friends,family or for that matter my existense ;).Now guess wheres the time for blogging.I have this blog dedicated to one idiot out here who has claimed that he reads my blogs regularly and so i need to blog as he is getting bored.

I dont know what to discuss or tell.As there hasnt been much interesting stuff that has happened with me to update either.But yes wait a minute all i can think of is i am excited about my next trip to you know where my lovely school.I am too excited just at the thought of going back to school.i know i cant go back and take classes ;) though,which i hated during those days.But yes now i miss them a lot.Especially Kamal mam's accent filled supercool English class,to Keshav Sir's the "Chombu" filled Maths classes.All my lovely classmates,hope all are in there seats and not down like we used to be, laughing in his classes.How can we forget Bawani mam,no matter what, she was a good human-being and i pray that her soul rest in peace where ever she is.Coming back i still dont forget those singing classes of Singaramma and god knows the name of the teacher who replaced her.The worst classes of my life for the reason that i dont even qualify to be a bathroom singer ;)hehehe.Of course my passion was debate,pick nd speak,story telling blah blah blah blah qualifying me to be a great speaker of course(Am i not a legend in that!!!!!).I also to an extent liked the Prabhavathi class even though i dont feel like adding mam next to her name :(.She really made me feel like a Gay at times.I was indeed tired of her partiality towards me,which was benificial but not a great feeling grrrrrrrr.

Now i cant even remember the number of subjects i had.How sick of me.Maths,English,Science and Sanskrit,Social,Hindi(with help from my friend sitted next to me :)).Sanskrit was way too tough subject for me.Even though i dint hate it,i never seemed to like it.I have indeed struggled to clear the papers ,end of the day managing a good score,with too much sweat wasted.Social was borrrrrrrrrring too.I hated Saraswani mam's boring classes.I dono how many will agree,but i felt she dint know the way to teach and if i would be her,i will be able to do a good job :).Anyways my classmates where not so lucky.Cant remember Hindi folks.

All in all those where fun filled days.I always looked forward for school to start and when it did,looked forward for it to close :).Cant forget Sushma's obssesed affection,nor Meke's dialogue to substantiate that singing is the best hobby "If you would ever be in jail,to paint you need paper and pen,to dance tape-recorder to play music,but to sing you need nothing", which always made me think will she or me ever be in jail ;).Cant forget the Tomboyish Shree.Cant forget the arrogant and fighter-cocks Abhi and Gowri.Cant forget Shreg in a Gay dance(Hahahahahahahahahahaha).Cant forget the long walk to eat that bogus Chat which we all claimed as treat then.Cant forget the competetion between us and section 'C'.Cant forget our school trips(All of them were fun).Cant forget Srividya's sun tan episode.Cant forget the Kho-Kho game that i was good at.Actually i was good at sports,wasnt i.Cant forget our first reaction at the sight of Garima.Cant forget the Nagaland dance which i did, and we won the first place everywhere we danced.Cant forget a lot of things.I fairly can remember when i forgot something about school

Think About This

I am here after a reaaaaaaaal long time.My 2 jobs have kindaa screwed up my schedule that my own blogspace keeps craving for me to visit it ;). So to make me and my blog space happy i am back

I came in here this morning for timepass.but seems like i am in a mood of serious debate. Debate as to what life was or what life is or what life can be.Sometimes i wonder we all claim to be leading a life. "Life" O man do anyone of us really know what it means. I guess it has a million definitions. Definitions that vary from end to end, continent to continent, class to class and finally person to person.

On a broader perspective writing this blog is also a part of my Life ;). Now thats crazy. Life for me is an oppurtunity given by the almighty to share different types of feelings , to meet different type of people, to see different shades of nature. All in all a platform to see and make a DIFFERENCE. Man wasnt that cool (Muaah to me :) ). Hope atleast half the souls who will read my blog will understand what i mean by life.

And as per some of my mates they claim life as just and just individual oriented mechanism, just leading a Bindaas life and then just washing it away like a stream of sand in a strom. But i wonder is this all life is or life can offer.

Its true that everyone comes with the destiny to leave. But some make a mark and some dont. I believe that even if we cant live a princelike life, but there is something every damn individual irrespective of circumstances does have and just a truthful concious of his/her can brighten up maybe not many, but alteast onces life. So people please belive that everyone of you reading this blog have something and may be just a extra effort can make all the DIFFERENCE.

PS: Dont brood about what you have or what you have lost in the past, cos anything that you have might be something the other doesnt and what you have lost might be something that was not meant for you. So gone should be the days when you make yourself feel that i have nothing, for the very reason that there is someone somewhere who doesnt even have what you have :).Cheers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mind Boggling Moments

Something new, something good, something bad, something insignificant, something significant happens everyday. Every day is new. Everyday is special in its own way. Every damn passing day adds so many memories. Some to be cherished and some to be feared of to even be remembered.

I want to reeeeeeeel back those good old moments of my life today.Those moments which have been so memorable to fade off from my memory for a real good time(maybe for a lifetime).To start off my journey-

• My first ever friend Abhi , still my friend and is still to stay.Someone who held the hands of a small little sweet innocent(guess too less adjectives naa to describe me ;)) girl when she really needed a friend.
• My neighbour,my soulmate,my twin sister(can say) Shreya who made life so entertaining with her cheap low class talks and her passion for speed raved me off.Someone with a cool happy go attitude.Someone who lived and let lived.Cheers mate!!!Hope you entertaining everyone out there in paradise heaven.
• My first so called Brother Gaurav,who has seen me growing nd who was there when no one was.Someone with a cool but very aggrassive nature.Someone who is the most caring soul i ever found in years.Guess still havent found anyone as caring as him :).
• My first success as a student,winning the Story telling competition.Never felt much happier than that day and may be never can any success be as relishing as that.My first ever national success for my own story named "Nothing is impossible,Cos Impossible itself means 'I m possible'" :)
• My trip to NASA ,indeed was a dream come true.Gosh Technology thrives there and what is called atmosphere is something i learned there.
• My first date( ;) blushing blushing), was not anywhere close to my dream date, but yet was my first date with the first guy i ever had a crush on.Sorry guys i faintly remember his face now :).
• My thesis work at Missionaries of Charity is a memory worth lifetime.What misery can be,is what i learnt from there.After staying there for a months time i have realised the worth of what i have and stopped cribbing about what i dont have.
• My first ever performance(Arangatrum) as a professional dancer
• My job in a Cafe.Man swear i liked that job to the core.Its twenty times more pleasure than sipping a cup of coffee at a cafe.
• My trip, actually our trip to US (Las Vegas):This trip was the most awesome trip of ma life.It was worth the pain we took to reach there with so much financial crunches and cant forget the "Bhook Hadthal" we did to make Shreya's parents agree for this trip.
• My life as a journalist:little different,liitle spicy,little hectic,little cool.In simple words,a job that payed to enjoy :)
• My first home.I have stayed in so many different houses all my life.But the pleasure of staying in a house thats bought soully by u is a pleasure.

Now life is rolling like a spinner ball and i m rolling with all the pleasure.Hoping things would remain the same and hoping things would change.Diplomatic huh.Leaving u guys at this thought...

My Truthful Confessions

I am in total jazzy confession mood today.Confessions for the sins that i have done and confessions for the sins that i havent.

So here i start: I appologise To

1) My birth ;) : If i was never born , then mistakes wouldnt have happened

2) My parents : If i wasnt so unlucky, may be things would have been different

3) My carelessness : If i wasnt careless, i mite have been something els and not an engineer for sure

4) My temper : If i had a control over it, maybe i would have never hurt so many innocent hearts

5) My friends( all of them ppl) : If i was just a little less caring, may be we would have all been together for ever.

6) My job : If i was just a little healthy, then could have spared and dedicated better time for it

7) Lastly to me : For never been able to dedicate any time for me. For have not taken any heed to my personal liking. Just accepted all that comes , totally unbothered and uninterested.

Finally all appologies have made me realise one ground reality:

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

A sweet tear trickles down my cheeks while i finish this blog, for the reason, unlike many today i have got an opportunity to appologise to all people associated to me in a direct or indirect way, whom i mite have unknowingly ever hurt.

People you all rock!!!As my very own existence is due to you all...Love you all..

Cheers!!!!!

Love Vs Arranged

From my thoughts i have seen all parents irrespective of cast and creed have the same thoughts on the most debated issue "Love marriage vs Arranged marriage"

Most of them who know me will be amused how am i debating on this topic.Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Prachi debating on this topic.Oh my god.But guyzzz i am here cos of my stupid cousin Pramod, who has been the motivating factor for me to write this blog.

Love marraige(from now on referred as A) mmmmmmmmmmmmm.Arranged marriage (from now on referred as B)mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.Gosh marriage(from now on referred as M) is another mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.Ooph its a draining topic guyzzz...As both for me have there own disadvantages and advantages.

Starting with A ,it is claimed as the most gifted and beautiful thing that can happen.You get an chance to understand your life partner much much before,you start shring life.Get to understand the compatibility that you share.Get to understand the common interest,likes and dislikes.Finally a chance to decide whether he/she is the special one.Is he/she the one with whom i can spend the rest of my life under a single roof.

But guyzzzz isnt this a little boring.There is no adventure ,no chance to explore the person.All is a open book.This can get to boredom.What really looked like a dream before marriage,can become a pain post marriage.Please guyzz don take any offense against me.This is all what i have heard.Nothing is "Aap Bithi". I am still a spinster you c :).

Now on B,it is claimed as the most traditional sought out marriage,where the girl and the guy see each other for the first time only when they are found with each other sharing the same room and ofcourse the same bed.As per some of my resources this is a disadvantage cos a lot of time is wasted in adjustment and compatibility before love making really happens ;).May be they have a point, maybe not.Who can ever decide on anyones body needs.So finally They start exploring each other like reading a suspense filled thriller novel.B for me used to be the most sought out option,but with the growing intellectual brains of our teens A has become the interest than an option ;).

People as for me ,for A to happen have started making love happen,whereas love is claimed to be fallen into from ancient times.Its all with the heart and the individual,why am i debating ;).

For me M itself is the biggest commited suicide in complete senses :0).Still people manage to defend by saying

"Shaadi Ek Aissa Ladoo Hai Jho Khata Hai Woh Bi Pachtata Hai,Aur Jo Na Kaye Woh Bi Pachtata Hai", So kakhe pachtaoooooooooooooooooo.

In Sweet Memories Of My Only Friend!!!!

This blog is a total dedication to my only living soulmate ,my best friend ever Shreya Vishwanathan.

Even though she is no more,she is still very much living....Living with me in my heart, in my words,in my ...........

She must have gone....She has indeed left me all alone to slog in this really cruel world :(...But today apart from those days when she was there to hold me,listen to me, understand me and finally advice me, has left behind memories that keep flashing in front of my eyes as though i can just feel her next to me and when i try to touch her she just disappears like a illusion.....

Its indeed the most tragical day of my life,the 9th of september when i have lost the only girl i ever had a best friend as....Who was so surprisingly born on the same day 24th of dec, same time 2.06 pm, same year 1984......She was just the one who indeed was my twin by all means...even twins don manage to hit this earth at the same time....But we really did...

She was someone who listened to my unsaid word and who could just complete my incomplete sentence....She has left this world but still remains in my heart so fresh.that i can c her ,feel her....There can be no Shreya back in my life....

There cant be those stupid days when we actually hit a boy in school for no fault of his..
There cant be those days when we baked cookies at 1 in the morning...
There cant be those days when we waited for Holidays to come over, for both of us to meet..
There cant be those days when we simply sneaked into a theatre for a A movie being just 14 and claimed us to be 20
There cant be those days when we had sleepless nights slogging our ass off for our own stupid friend gaurav's projects.
There cant be those days when me,shreya and gaurav went out partying,bungee jumping,gokarting and what all wild things
There cant be those days when i where we will live with speed again(She was an awesome driver and loved speed)
There cant be those days when i am down and she says "Rona Khatam, plz yaar bhook lagi hai,Khane ke baad ro lena"... :) stupid female...
There cant be those days when i had to think think think think for months deciding on Ms.Queens Bday gift...
There cant be those days when i will compete to wish who is gonna be first..
There cant be those days where we shared our treat money...
There was so much, and so much was yet to come...

This is not the end ,I will come rite there and handle with u girl :)

I never told u when u where here,how much i missed u my Angel and now u have never given a chance to tell that....

But u know i will miss u beyond life and beyond words.....

Love has no ending!!!

Today for me was definitely a little different to start of with.It was more like a new begining.Felt like sharing just what i felt with all you people.So i am here all again with just a jiffy break ;) you see.

Just had a reaaaaaaaaaal good sleep last night.Unlike my other days where i am struggling in bits to have my eyes shut in total peace.I am sure people ,you guyzzz must be wondering whom do i dream of.Please all working brains ,let them rest in peace.The real fact is my wheezing problem just gets worse during the night and this so called place Bangalore with more pollen carrier in air,just screws it up.But now coming back to the point,i just had a reaaal good sleep for a change yesterday,that totally reflects in my face right now.

Never wondered the day could start off in a much better off way.Had to get up as always in the Australian Standard Time, as i work for the Aussies :(. However must say i kindaa like my job u c :). So getting up at 3.45 in the morning, simply reminds me of the engineering days when i was slogging my ass off to give my semester papers. Now i am used to this time though.As always had a sweet message from my loving and caring Dost, to which i replied back as again almost 5 hours later :). Then all set ,my cab was home to take me to start off with the daily routine.

Just when we were coming to office, strange in the morning i goto have a look at a couple holding hands, with so much love seen so evidently in thier eyes trying to stop our cab.My cab driver a little reluctant, but having a look around with so many cabs standing across, finally got the jazz to stop the car.Must say the cab driver and the security where a little worried as i was a lady employee and with the crime rate shooting up in Bangalore every single day, they seemed to have a very concerned look.But they somehow had me convinced to not get out of the cab and then asked the couple what the problem was.Then the man said ,its just that its my wifes BDAY today and she loves a cold chilling night under the stars with me holding her hand and the entire world wishing her Happy BDAY while she is cutting her BDAY cake.So i request you guyz to join me, for her to live her dream BDAY.

Mmmmm isnt that so romantic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Muaaaaah to that guy.I just wish i find someone as romantic as him,not one bit less,not one bit more :) .But my cab driver refused the invite,while i somehow managed to convince me :).It was a memorable sight that will never be faded away from the memories of those who where present to celebrate the lucky ladies BDAY.

The surprise factor is that the couple where married since last 56 years.The lady love was celebrating her 67th BDAY.Isnt that amusing.The couple simply sent across a message that "Someone somewhere is made for you"

Still the love and chemistry between them was so fresh.............Maybe now i kindaa try to get what Love means....Food for thought isnt it.....C ya ppl until next time