Mind Boggling Moments

Something new, something good, something bad, something insignificant, something significant happens everyday. Every day is new. Everyday is special in its own way. Every damn passing day adds so many memories. Some to be cherished and some to be feared of to even be remembered.

I want to reeeeeeeel back those good old moments of my life today.Those moments which have been so memorable to fade off from my memory for a real good time(maybe for a lifetime).To start off my journey-

• My first ever friend Abhi , still my friend and is still to stay.Someone who held the hands of a small little sweet innocent(guess too less adjectives naa to describe me ;)) girl when she really needed a friend.
• My neighbour,my soulmate,my twin sister(can say) Shreya who made life so entertaining with her cheap low class talks and her passion for speed raved me off.Someone with a cool happy go attitude.Someone who lived and let lived.Cheers mate!!!Hope you entertaining everyone out there in paradise heaven.
• My first so called Brother Gaurav,who has seen me growing nd who was there when no one was.Someone with a cool but very aggrassive nature.Someone who is the most caring soul i ever found in years.Guess still havent found anyone as caring as him :).
• My first success as a student,winning the Story telling competition.Never felt much happier than that day and may be never can any success be as relishing as that.My first ever national success for my own story named "Nothing is impossible,Cos Impossible itself means 'I m possible'" :)
• My trip to NASA ,indeed was a dream come true.Gosh Technology thrives there and what is called atmosphere is something i learned there.
• My first date( ;) blushing blushing), was not anywhere close to my dream date, but yet was my first date with the first guy i ever had a crush on.Sorry guys i faintly remember his face now :).
• My thesis work at Missionaries of Charity is a memory worth lifetime.What misery can be,is what i learnt from there.After staying there for a months time i have realised the worth of what i have and stopped cribbing about what i dont have.
• My first ever performance(Arangatrum) as a professional dancer
• My job in a Cafe.Man swear i liked that job to the core.Its twenty times more pleasure than sipping a cup of coffee at a cafe.
• My trip, actually our trip to US (Las Vegas):This trip was the most awesome trip of ma life.It was worth the pain we took to reach there with so much financial crunches and cant forget the "Bhook Hadthal" we did to make Shreya's parents agree for this trip.
• My life as a journalist:little different,liitle spicy,little hectic,little cool.In simple words,a job that payed to enjoy :)
• My first home.I have stayed in so many different houses all my life.But the pleasure of staying in a house thats bought soully by u is a pleasure.

Now life is rolling like a spinner ball and i m rolling with all the pleasure.Hoping things would remain the same and hoping things would change.Diplomatic huh.Leaving u guys at this thought...

My Truthful Confessions

I am in total jazzy confession mood today.Confessions for the sins that i have done and confessions for the sins that i havent.

So here i start: I appologise To

1) My birth ;) : If i was never born , then mistakes wouldnt have happened

2) My parents : If i wasnt so unlucky, may be things would have been different

3) My carelessness : If i wasnt careless, i mite have been something els and not an engineer for sure

4) My temper : If i had a control over it, maybe i would have never hurt so many innocent hearts

5) My friends( all of them ppl) : If i was just a little less caring, may be we would have all been together for ever.

6) My job : If i was just a little healthy, then could have spared and dedicated better time for it

7) Lastly to me : For never been able to dedicate any time for me. For have not taken any heed to my personal liking. Just accepted all that comes , totally unbothered and uninterested.

Finally all appologies have made me realise one ground reality:

For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life.

A sweet tear trickles down my cheeks while i finish this blog, for the reason, unlike many today i have got an opportunity to appologise to all people associated to me in a direct or indirect way, whom i mite have unknowingly ever hurt.

People you all rock!!!As my very own existence is due to you all...Love you all..

Cheers!!!!!

Love Vs Arranged

From my thoughts i have seen all parents irrespective of cast and creed have the same thoughts on the most debated issue "Love marriage vs Arranged marriage"

Most of them who know me will be amused how am i debating on this topic.Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Prachi debating on this topic.Oh my god.But guyzzz i am here cos of my stupid cousin Pramod, who has been the motivating factor for me to write this blog.

Love marraige(from now on referred as A) mmmmmmmmmmmmm.Arranged marriage (from now on referred as B)mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.Gosh marriage(from now on referred as M) is another mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.Ooph its a draining topic guyzzz...As both for me have there own disadvantages and advantages.

Starting with A ,it is claimed as the most gifted and beautiful thing that can happen.You get an chance to understand your life partner much much before,you start shring life.Get to understand the compatibility that you share.Get to understand the common interest,likes and dislikes.Finally a chance to decide whether he/she is the special one.Is he/she the one with whom i can spend the rest of my life under a single roof.

But guyzzzz isnt this a little boring.There is no adventure ,no chance to explore the person.All is a open book.This can get to boredom.What really looked like a dream before marriage,can become a pain post marriage.Please guyzz don take any offense against me.This is all what i have heard.Nothing is "Aap Bithi". I am still a spinster you c :).

Now on B,it is claimed as the most traditional sought out marriage,where the girl and the guy see each other for the first time only when they are found with each other sharing the same room and ofcourse the same bed.As per some of my resources this is a disadvantage cos a lot of time is wasted in adjustment and compatibility before love making really happens ;).May be they have a point, maybe not.Who can ever decide on anyones body needs.So finally They start exploring each other like reading a suspense filled thriller novel.B for me used to be the most sought out option,but with the growing intellectual brains of our teens A has become the interest than an option ;).

People as for me ,for A to happen have started making love happen,whereas love is claimed to be fallen into from ancient times.Its all with the heart and the individual,why am i debating ;).

For me M itself is the biggest commited suicide in complete senses :0).Still people manage to defend by saying

"Shaadi Ek Aissa Ladoo Hai Jho Khata Hai Woh Bi Pachtata Hai,Aur Jo Na Kaye Woh Bi Pachtata Hai", So kakhe pachtaoooooooooooooooooo.

In Sweet Memories Of My Only Friend!!!!

This blog is a total dedication to my only living soulmate ,my best friend ever Shreya Vishwanathan.

Even though she is no more,she is still very much living....Living with me in my heart, in my words,in my ...........

She must have gone....She has indeed left me all alone to slog in this really cruel world :(...But today apart from those days when she was there to hold me,listen to me, understand me and finally advice me, has left behind memories that keep flashing in front of my eyes as though i can just feel her next to me and when i try to touch her she just disappears like a illusion.....

Its indeed the most tragical day of my life,the 9th of september when i have lost the only girl i ever had a best friend as....Who was so surprisingly born on the same day 24th of dec, same time 2.06 pm, same year 1984......She was just the one who indeed was my twin by all means...even twins don manage to hit this earth at the same time....But we really did...

She was someone who listened to my unsaid word and who could just complete my incomplete sentence....She has left this world but still remains in my heart so fresh.that i can c her ,feel her....There can be no Shreya back in my life....

There cant be those stupid days when we actually hit a boy in school for no fault of his..
There cant be those days when we baked cookies at 1 in the morning...
There cant be those days when we waited for Holidays to come over, for both of us to meet..
There cant be those days when we simply sneaked into a theatre for a A movie being just 14 and claimed us to be 20
There cant be those days when we had sleepless nights slogging our ass off for our own stupid friend gaurav's projects.
There cant be those days when me,shreya and gaurav went out partying,bungee jumping,gokarting and what all wild things
There cant be those days when i where we will live with speed again(She was an awesome driver and loved speed)
There cant be those days when i am down and she says "Rona Khatam, plz yaar bhook lagi hai,Khane ke baad ro lena"... :) stupid female...
There cant be those days when i had to think think think think for months deciding on Ms.Queens Bday gift...
There cant be those days when i will compete to wish who is gonna be first..
There cant be those days where we shared our treat money...
There was so much, and so much was yet to come...

This is not the end ,I will come rite there and handle with u girl :)

I never told u when u where here,how much i missed u my Angel and now u have never given a chance to tell that....

But u know i will miss u beyond life and beyond words.....

Love has no ending!!!

Today for me was definitely a little different to start of with.It was more like a new begining.Felt like sharing just what i felt with all you people.So i am here all again with just a jiffy break ;) you see.

Just had a reaaaaaaaaaal good sleep last night.Unlike my other days where i am struggling in bits to have my eyes shut in total peace.I am sure people ,you guyzzz must be wondering whom do i dream of.Please all working brains ,let them rest in peace.The real fact is my wheezing problem just gets worse during the night and this so called place Bangalore with more pollen carrier in air,just screws it up.But now coming back to the point,i just had a reaaal good sleep for a change yesterday,that totally reflects in my face right now.

Never wondered the day could start off in a much better off way.Had to get up as always in the Australian Standard Time, as i work for the Aussies :(. However must say i kindaa like my job u c :). So getting up at 3.45 in the morning, simply reminds me of the engineering days when i was slogging my ass off to give my semester papers. Now i am used to this time though.As always had a sweet message from my loving and caring Dost, to which i replied back as again almost 5 hours later :). Then all set ,my cab was home to take me to start off with the daily routine.

Just when we were coming to office, strange in the morning i goto have a look at a couple holding hands, with so much love seen so evidently in thier eyes trying to stop our cab.My cab driver a little reluctant, but having a look around with so many cabs standing across, finally got the jazz to stop the car.Must say the cab driver and the security where a little worried as i was a lady employee and with the crime rate shooting up in Bangalore every single day, they seemed to have a very concerned look.But they somehow had me convinced to not get out of the cab and then asked the couple what the problem was.Then the man said ,its just that its my wifes BDAY today and she loves a cold chilling night under the stars with me holding her hand and the entire world wishing her Happy BDAY while she is cutting her BDAY cake.So i request you guyz to join me, for her to live her dream BDAY.

Mmmmm isnt that so romantic!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Muaaaaah to that guy.I just wish i find someone as romantic as him,not one bit less,not one bit more :) .But my cab driver refused the invite,while i somehow managed to convince me :).It was a memorable sight that will never be faded away from the memories of those who where present to celebrate the lucky ladies BDAY.

The surprise factor is that the couple where married since last 56 years.The lady love was celebrating her 67th BDAY.Isnt that amusing.The couple simply sent across a message that "Someone somewhere is made for you"

Still the love and chemistry between them was so fresh.............Maybe now i kindaa try to get what Love means....Food for thought isnt it.....C ya ppl until next time

I Feared UNTIL ……!!!

I feared being alone
Until I learned to like Myself.
I feared failure
Until I realized that I only Fail when I don't try.
I feared success
Until I realized that I had to try in order to be happy with myself.

I feared people's opinions
Until I learned that people would have opinions about me anyway.
I feared rejection
Until I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain
Until I learned that it's necessary for growth

I feared the truth
Until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life
Until I experienced its beauty .
I feared death
Until I realized that it's not an end, but a beginning.

I feared my destiny,
Until I realized that I had the power to change my life.
I feared hate
Until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love
Until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days.

I feared ridicule
Until I learned how to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old
Until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future
Until I realized that Life just kept getting better.

I feared the past
Until I realized that It could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark
Until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the light
Until I learned that the Truth would give me Strength.
I feared change,
Until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo a Metamorphosis before it could fly.

I feared the fear,
I still fear the fear,
Will always fear the fear........

PAST

"Your past forms you, whether you like it or not. Each encounter,each experience has its own effects."
-dono who said it

They say elephants never forget, neither do I. Okay, okay you can stop deriving the inference that I'm an elephant. I'm not. Actually I ve got a decent memory, but the funny characteristic of my hard drive is that it retains a lotta insignificant stuff and its these little
Things that I fail to forget.

And amongst these insignificant stuff are these nice little insiginificant stuff viz. faces of old friends n crushes and their phone numbers, some really old funny incident, a nice book that I'd read or a cheap limerick that I picked up in school.. There are those embarassing situations that you somehow get entangled into, which might include getting dressed as a village boy for a school dance just because you were the shortest girl in your class.. and not for the fact that u looked pretty ... Then pensively, you recount those incidents when you felt that ur life didnt have direction/meaning and that u need to find a purpose to your life... This thought keeps popping up due to popular demand and it has recurred so many times that now a days I just bypass it.

You recall the times u felt you could never forgive God, like when He allows you to get beaten in a game of swimming by a kid half your age..(I'm not saying this particular incident happened to me) ...FYI, I'm a fairly good swimmer... Then there are those incidents that leave you basking in glory, like when u win the intra section story telling competition while studying in III "A"..

There has been this small very inignificant,but sometimes soooooooo significant things haunting your memories,like my first bicycle ride that just shakes your very existence.On the other hand there have been things you would always relish like my first Page 3 life, as an a simple engineering student.Sometimes all this simple but yet so significant thoughts just bind you and in a long run become the so called experiences life teaches.

Guyzzzz its totally insane of any existing living being to say that memories fade away,but there also lies a fact that they in turn teach you something to get something else in life.They pass by to show you the importance of something that is coming towards So, every now and then I like to rewind and re-live such moments, and it never fails to bring a smile to my face... Just raeel backwards and shmmmiillle away ...